♥Love as though you have never been hurt before ♥

“The first boy who gave me the meaning of love”

“Now, he is just the part of my past”

I know you since I was child. When I was child you’re the one boy that I love. We always play together. We always laugh together. I had so many memories with you. Did you remember memories between us? Or maybe did you forget of anything at all? Hahahaha “NO” … I know you forget everything we ever had. But, you must know “I love you” I love you since I was child. Because you are the first boy who gave the meaning of love.

Maybe I’m a stupid person who ever lived. Because I’m waiting for someone who never became mine. I’m waiting because I don’t know what else I have to do. I want you to know, but I don’t want anybody or myself telling you the way I fell I just want to you know. I don’t think you quite know how much I’m in love with you.

The past is not same with now. Now, you really changed. We don’t talk anymore. We don’t play together anymore. You never say “hi” or smile to me every time we meet. Don’t you know is make me crazy? Why you never smile every time we meet? Hah? You don’t know me? Or you pretend not to see me?

Did you know? I get the best feeling in the world when you say “hi” or even smile at me. Because I know even if its just for a second that I’ve crossed on your mind. I try to talk to you, but I don’t know what to say. I’m afraid you don’t want me to say anything. So, I don’t talk to you. But, inside of me there are words waiting to come out.

I know there’s no place for me in your thinning heart. I know that the only thing beside me is a shadow. Mow, you know became a stranger following different dreams. Maybe, we don’t fit one another. You and me = impossible. You and her = the right combination. You’re different, don’t look into my eyes. Because it makes me hurts.

I watch you beside the lucky girl.  Is she your girl friend? Oh, I know the answer is “yes, she is my girlfriend”. Hahahah but I never ask that to you. Because it’s just make me sick. Okay, now I’ll pray that I can forget you. My tears always fall for you. My tears always fall when I think of you. OMG!!! What happened to me? why I love someone who never loved me?

If  I never knew you. If I never felt this love. This pain never would’ve came. I’m sorry for loving you, depending on you. Because I can’t help my self. I can’t love you anymore. My crying figure is pushed away. Don’t look for me. I’ve forgotten. One day for this reason. One day for this pain. You’ll hurt too. Just like me now!!! It’s time to say good bye to you. Because, now you just the part of my past. Nice to know you. Nice to meet you. And nice to love you. And thanks to gave me happy memories. :) :D C:

Now, I'm waiting for true love♥

 I hope you'll find your true love